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Chris Cornell defined this song as being open to interpretation as there is no overall theme throughout the song, “a picture painted with words”, he said,.

To me, it speaks of the dark shadow that dwells inside of all of us. The many masks we use from day to day, hiding some parts of who we really are, those parts we wouldn't ever want others to know,.

To me, it appears the songs shares the perspicacity of what this dark shadow is (in all of us) and the disgust of facing that part of yourself,.

The understanding of how uncomfortable it is, being exposed to others under such light. Or even worst, having that which you dislike of yourself, in the mirror, staring back at you,.

The protagonist asks for a reset. To the way things were, when one was pure, untarnished by what humanity is and makes you become.

At least that's my take on it,.

Walking your path,.

Learning to cope,. hah,. oh God,. What is going on,. It's a roller coaster of a life, is it not? We just want someone to hold,. But at the same time, we want nothing at all,. Feels a little like loosing your identity,. Loosing your self,. or maybe not understanding who you've become or better yet,. Not at ease with you see staring back at you in the mirror,.

But,. enough of that,. this week will be different,. Or so I hope it'll be,.

Since things have been so hectic I shifted to composing music and learning Romanian, in my free time,. Also, I've been learning about Binary Options, which is a sort of method of investment where you speculate the futures of currency and what not,. It looks promising,. So on my off time I'll be investing some of my money on that and see how it goes,. So far the pros outweigh the cons. So it is worth a try,. It's time to go above and beyond the single source of income,.

So I've been talking to my friend, the plan to Romania is running smoothly,. In a way it is strange, because, he's the one that originated the plan. Yet has the hardest time now, since well,. he will have to leave his kid behind for sometime. Let the pieces fall as they may and the might be together soon, or not. So this is taking a toll on him.

Me on the other hand. I was positioned the plan, specially at a time where things where complicated (to the point I asked this dumb girl if she wanted to go (thank God my eyes were opened)). So at the time I was so damn hesitant about choosing the option of going. But then things turned upside down and all this I've gone through has just pushed me forward to that decision. I spoke to my parents and my mom said the best thing that she could've said, she said, "There is nothing here that is holding you back from taking that journey. Go and experience something different". For my mom to day it surprised me a lot. She is the type of mom that wants you close. But I guess she saw in me someone that needs something more, something else. It could be also because she and my dad went through Europe two years ago and were left awed,. I guess she wants the same thing for me.

Like I've said before and I'll say it again. People here are nice and all. But I've always felt out of place. Why? Because of all the places I've live, this is the only place where I see people so caged within themselves, so much taboo, "what are people going to say", damn honestly what I've experiences in this country made me so self-conscious to a certain point, callado mas bointo, no? haha,. No, I do not like that about this place,. :p Never will,. There's nice good people out there,.
But,. ah well,.

All I know is that I am looking forward to letting go of all,. Socarla and live on my own means on the other side of the world,. Away from any roots,. Away from anyone that undervalued my love in this place,. And lets see how I am developed based on those conditions,.  Well,. falta,. still money to save, things to do, people to talk to,. But like I said, at first I was adamant about all this,. Now I want it more than anything,.

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Ando perdiendo TODO /// Lost and Found

Yo venia con todas las intenciones de hablar acerca lo sucedido con mis llaves de el carro. Pero aparentemente mi ingenuidad me gano una vez mas quedar de lele.,. Estabamos afuera de la casa de Germanese a.k.a. Gman, a.k.a. Aleman,. Tranquilamente jugando con las camaras digitales. Aleman dijo, "hey no se te vayan a olvidar las tarjetas de memoria en el techo del carro". -.- Entonces yo bien campante decidi meter las tarjetas al carro. Pero menos sabia yo que haciendo eso desataria eventos que pudieran haber hecho que mi celular terminara en alguna calle x. Bueno,. regresando a la historia, decidimos ir a mi casa, pues porque en realidad no teniamos adonde estar, ni dinero para salir NI nada [si, ni nada dije],. Bajamos la cuesta de su casa [la cuesta que baja a la par del estadio cuscatlan] llegamos a San Mateo,. no tardo mas de 5 minutos,. y no ibamos lento,. bueno,. entramos a la casa parqueamos el carro,. y salimos de el,. Al salirde el carro,. ni me acuerdo que veniamos hablando,. pero a tomar el primer paso cuando veo el celular en el techo del carro,. Y me quede totalmente extrañado,. pues, no sabia lo acababa de poner ahi o que,. Ahora, les cuento que hay una manera de saber como haz andado el celular en el techo del carro en la noche. Al tocar el celular tiene que estar helado helado. He ahi, cuando me di cuenta de lo sucedido. Lo volvi a poner en el techo y trate de ver que tanta friccion tenia con el. Y no tenia absolutamente nada. Muy muy extraño,. I know,. Ahora dias atras antes de esa situacion paso la primera perdida/reencuentro.

Tavo y Yo hemos andado viendo camionetas que comprar en la hora de lunch. Ese dia como todos esos dias salimos a ver una camioneta. Era una explorer 1999 el color no se como describirlo pero lo que se viene a mi mente es si Pepto Bismol llegara a sacar una version de su jarabe para momentos "inestables del estomago" seria la version Pepto Bismol con Menthol. nose es un color piel de Epatitis con Celeste-Verde, les digo nose. Bueno, la cosa es que la camioneta estaba fea, la vimos y regresamos al parque de Telefonica, y ahi puse las llaves a un lado y empezamos a fumar y reflexionar lo mierda que estaba esa Explorer. Esto fue como a las 4pm. regresamos al trabajo, tomamos llamadas, fuimos otra vez a fumar no en el mismo lugar sinog que el 6to piso de Dell. Regresamos a terminar el shift. Ya tipo 9.30pm [hora de escapar]. Me di cuenta que no tenia las llaves conmigo. Le dije a Tavo, "mira perdi las llaves, esperame no vaya ser que no las encuentre". Bueno, Tavo dijo, " Que maje sos, blah blah noob blah blah". Regresamos al 6to piso no estaban aho. Bajamos al 5to piso y le preguntamos al guardia si algunas llaves habian llegado a su posesion y nada. De ahi solo tocaba ir al sotano [ahi queda la oficinas de Security]. Pero en 5to se perdieron entonces decidimos ver si podian estar ahi. Dudabamos que lo estuvieran pues mil personas pasan ahi, y los llaveros de Pilsener y de Ghost in the Shell son llamativos pues lo se porque desde lejos se miraban en todo su resplendor en el mismo lugar. Gritaban "mi dueño es un noob!",. Otro tip cuando perdas algo y tenes idea que es en un lugar obvio no lleves a tus amigos a buscar las cosas que lo unico que puede llegar hacer es ahuevarte. Entonces en la misma semana he probado dear mis llaves en el parqueo y mi celular. Ambas situaciones adonde las probabilidades son bien altas que se pierden las cosas y no fue asi., Muy extraño, I know! Yo nunca he andado perdiendo las cosas mucho menos asi. Y este si no me equivoco es mi primer post en español. No lo hago normalmente porque mi español es una real mierda. Pero hay que tratar cosas diferentes, verdad? Ya es hora de dormir o tratar de hacerlo,. Hay escribo mas tarde., Haber que pierdo ahora? :S

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Calidad y Comfort,. :( El mecanismo de bolsa de aire tambien conocido como Scotch Tape,.

Quien pohtahs trata de vender su carro con cascaras de naranja??? Lavalo jayan!!!
Ehh no,.