Dreams of Enthralling Danger,.

You know that feeling at the pit of your stomach, when you see someone or something that strikes you right at the core, someone or something you've held too much feels built up for. Those feelings, memories, thoughts are dormant, excluded from your day to day persona.

A sweet sense of "oh, shit,. this is not good...", a captivating discomfort, fear of facing that which you hold dear. Tender and sensitive armored by layers of protection, yet the danger of disruption seduces & amuses your deep thoughts.

The sweet safety of dreams. Ignorance, it is not so bliss when you think you've committed wrong decisions during a dream. Because sadly, you think you're causing havoc in more ways than one to your real life. Felt so so bad, yet, with a dash of pretty sweet to welcome trouble, even though it was all in my head.

Long day, but work is done, webinars complete, member's happy. It's time for the sun to drop and make way for a long night. The rain has accompanied during this session. But it's time to switch mode. I'll keep my thoughts close, as we watch the social fire dance commence.

On another topic (close but off). Last Wednesday night. Feeling that kept stuck in me, must be messed up trying hard to seduce someone, but they're stuck tripping a song off staring at the lights.
Well, I kind know how some of that kinda feels, lol, but that's something else entirely (looks away,.).

Jumping on random topics. I got too many drafts. Note to self's, I must publish, stick around and complete. Hopefully soon.

All in all, bottom line,. nothing can bring you happiness but yourself,. even if the week was a grind from hell.

On that note. Time to get up and get lost. tip of the hat. Good night world. Cue up the track. lol.

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Short Stop.

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It's been a hectic month since my last post,. (as always, consistency, one of my areas of improvement),.

Been busy getting things in order, connecting bridges, burning others. Opening doors for those I see fit and closing others that I have no reason to keep open. My job? Demanding, it takes time I could use to build other projects, but that is life. No other way about it. No time for those that demand too much of it and are never satisfied.

So some of my plans are on hold, until further notice. But great milestones are nearing ahead (as long as I keep my ducks in line and walking. Walk bitches,.).

Off-Topic (With a point in the end, I promise.) - The 1st of January, I went out with a few friends, after the New Years celebration with the family, we ended joining some folks @ Paseo El Carmen. One of my friend's acquaintance blurted out this little gem, -"este año, es el año del exito" and those of us who were there at the time laughed, it was funny cause he was drunk and the guy is one of the strangest persons I've met up to know. Anyways, we have kept mentioning that phrase as the year goes by. 

But, as funny as it is mentioning it (you have to say it with conviction) for every little plan we have, there might just be something inside that phrase that opens up a can of whoop-ass in the universe that is helping our plans march along. 

That said, (which is not much at all) I need to move, for the moment. But I had to let this go on my senseless stream of thoughts, as a reminder I have to come back and leave my State of a Daydreamer 2015 address (lol, lame). Lot's of thought's I rather see in text and re-digest through my eyes.

Hopefully I'll post some of these over this weekend or later tonight, it all depends, but, it has to remain documented.

And as I leave to take a bath and do partially, my Friday night Routine. I leave this track that has been in my head pushing me on, the past month or two. 

Funny how it centers me, instead of triggering a panic attack. Comfort zone? Don't know, but the beat is crazy, which works well with my off-set self.

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Yes,. there is a bitter sweetness going around right now.

As though there is a good mood in the air,
a good ol' up-beat attitude going on;

But for some reason I can't shake the feeling...
the feeling you get when your nerves are tense,
just as when you have a light panic attack;

Sucks when you're on "wanting to know" mode.
When you feel there's something you haven't realized,
and everybody knows whats going on;

I mean, I'm not talking specifics.
I'm just saying,
sometimes it feels as though you're out of the loop;

In result, nothing can must be done.
because nothing "needs" to be done,
just stick with enjoy what you have going for you,
just pause, breath and continue;

The Intro? sighs,. ok ok, .-.-

well,. at last ill give this thing a chance and try to start bloggin my ass off as much as i can,,. i got an exam coming very soon,. and i need to study,. crap i hate the feeling im gettin in my stomach right now >_<>_<