Tunkofest 2011

Went to El Tunco with my friends yesterday night,. (they stayed over I came back, I have work to do). Now there's a place that has change throughout the years. Wish I could've enjoyed it farther than my head lets me. Just like I was wishing that rock band polluting the night's air to shut the hell up. No point in going to El Tunco and sitting next to so much noise,. Might as well stayed home a wore protection ear muffs while we drank. But moving my view aside of some meaningless things. It was good to see my friends all in one place. Rare opportunities for us to be in one place will sadly become scarce. So well then I stayed with them as far as it was possible but the time came I had to leave. I thought coming back from El Tunco was going to be challenging (due to my anxiety kicking in like a bat out of hell just as if it bothers me whenever it's bored and wants me to amuse its witty self,.) It was a great ride though, The only thing I remember thinking was, "Man this rode is not so bad, people should really stop racing these streets,..". Oh well,. got home 30 minutes later, I messaged my babygirl, who has been working really hard on her assignment for class. Such a beautiful girl, such an admiration, like no other. Love you baby,. After that message I sent her, I fell asleep like a rock. And now,. I gotta get ready for work,. Well then, take care.

Missing

Once again my timing and choice of words kill hope in a hopeless world,. I used to be such an optimist. And I would like to think my actions mean well. But yet again, here I stand loosing my sanity unable to grasp whom I hold dearest. Again I make fault on those who expect more from me. Again I disappoint whom I want the most in life for. Whom I only wish the best for. I'll never be more than the second option. Again, I wish you all the love you deserve. You are but one beautiful rose in a forsaken desolate world,.

Reflekt Feat Delline Bass - Need To Feel Loved (Adam K & Soha Remix)

One of those songs that lets me drift through the chaos of the day to day grind,. Just to close my eyes and fade away,. It's a great feeling to escape,. Wish we could do that so bad,.

Hope you get better sweets,. (My babygirl is sick),.

The video is a mashup from the movie It's all Gone Pete Tong, great marriage with this song, seeing as though the song is featured in the movie,. great flick,. So enjoy,. Headphones recommended,. :)

Eyes Wide Open, I'm dreamin',. +.-

Come and catch me baby, I'm falling
Come catch me, babe.
I'm fallin'.

Come and save me, baby.
I'm callin'.

Come and be with me, babe.
Come as you are.

Come catch a fire, babe.
Don't let me fade away.
Don't let me fade away.

Come catch a feelin'.
It's electrifyin' me.
Eyes wide open.
I'm dreamin'.

Free fallin' baby.
Awake before I'm back.
Free fallin' baby.
Awake before I'm back.
Awake before I'm back.
Awake before I'm back.
Awake before I'm back.
Awake before I'm back.

Come and touch me baby.
I need to be loved.
And come hold me babe.
I need to feel loved.
I need to feel loved.

And come catch a fire.
Don't let me fade away.
Come catch a fire, babe.
Don't let me fade away.
Come catch a feelin'.
It's electrifyin' me.
Eyes wide open.
I'm dreamin'.

Free fallin' baby.
Awake before I'm back.
Free fallin' baby.
Awake before I'm back.

Come and touch me, baby.
I need to be loved.
And come hold me babe.
I need to feel loved.

Come and touch me, baby.
I need to be loved.
And come hold me, babe.
I need to feel loved.
I need to feel loved.
I need to feel loved.
I need to feel loved.

Waiting on the stop light,. and a new year passes by,.

affection,. over & above my reason
to contemplate the discrete moments we share

luv u sweets,.

thanks for everything you've done,. you drive me to do more,. you've stood beside me through the good the bad and the ugly,. I can't describe how special you are to me,. I know I got my faults,. (you know that all too well),. But I do thank you for seeing past all that and being there for me,. Love you for who you are, and I find myself spending my time thinking about you, all the time,. To me, because of the rocking girl that you are, loving you comes naturally. We have good memories and so much more to come,.



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I do not claim to understand much of what life gives you. I can attest though that more often than not, bitter~sweet is the taste of what we go through in our daily grind.

Wait,. This may be an all-too-late good-bye to the old,. and let's see what the new calendar brings,. Type-post,.

But here I am,. half past January bleeding out words of regret of not saying anything at all,. (My sweets is on the other side of the phone line,. sleeping,. hopefully resting that complex mind of hers,.) I myself in need to type,. even if it's not much of anything or a lot of nothing. The main point of me bringing up this je ne sais quoi,. a fragment of whateverness if you will,. (god,.(that's another topic),. have I not overcome my mind's block throughout all these years?)

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What I wanted to say is,. Last year is gone, it had laughter and tears,. things were concluded and gaps were left,. I say let this year come as it may,. with it's tasks & distractions, celebrations & wounds,. What matters is live the days towards a better way,. love more,. feel more,. understand more,. 2011 is the year of the rabbit,. I say, Grab this rabbit year by the ears and make it your bitch,. Let the obstacles come and let's handle them,.