Missing

Once again my timing and choice of words kill hope in a hopeless world,. I used to be such an optimist. And I would like to think my actions mean well. But yet again, here I stand loosing my sanity unable to grasp whom I hold dearest. Again I make fault on those who expect more from me. Again I disappoint whom I want the most in life for. Whom I only wish the best for. I'll never be more than the second option. Again, I wish you all the love you deserve. You are but one beautiful rose in a forsaken desolate world,.